Steamy

…A mostly fictionalized account of what Miss Prude wishes her amourous teenage years had included. This, and dating boys in bands. Sigh, don’t you kind of miss it? Well, enjoy!…

We were young then, and much in love, those days when he took my fingers into his mouth one by one, his lips a caress and a question. And then, a soft exchange, the pads of his finger tips on my tongue, long fingers, an artist’s hands, which I sucked with long strokes, my naiveté not quite catching the connection to other pleasures in other places.

It was the typical awkwardness of teen love – first times (too dry, too tight), bad angles (back seats, park benches), and of course, the ridiculousness of ‘protection’ (so embarrassing, so silly). In time though, we found our way–I always wet and ready for his touch, eager for new experiences; for the probe and search of his fingers, the paradox of his body at once both velvet and hard. Who can forget those early exploratory couplings? The instinctive arch of your body towards his, the thrust of his hips into your own. And finally, after weeks of near-misses, that first cresting gasp under his touch alone, the wave of your pleasure rolling over his fingers—or better yet, the pulse of your body sliding over his lips, his tongue, his wet and hungry mouth.

I never minded the ways we had to sneak and bumble. Mad couplings in parking lots, me astride him in the bucket seats, his jeans pulled low, my skirt hiked high. It seemed we were always half dressed then, boxers splayed open by a body with a mind of its own; satin things pushed aside, the lace wet with anticipation. Oh! And his army surplus coat used as a picnic blanket to save our backs from grass stains, my knees dented with the impression of pebbles as I sucked him, aroused by the salty drops first on my tongue, then rush in waves to my mouth.

Or if even those small minutes of solitude could not be managed there were always hands slipping behind belts, fingers under waistbands, palms sliding up a thigh and under the hem of loose shorts in the back row of movie theatres, or once, in the high shelter of a ferris wheel stopped mercifully long at the top of its arch.

And of course, almost as sweet as the every-time-we-can coupling were the love letters tucked under windshield wipers, flowers left on doorstops, silly stuffed animals with red satin hearts. And the phone calls, so long one of us would fall asleep on the other end. Or the heated glances across the classrooms–too obvious by far to other students and to teachers who turned towards the blackboard and rolled their eyes. Novel then, and thrilling were the kisses behind locker doors, hands held at orange picnic tables over Snickers bars and Diet Cokes.

Then always, after a week of those fine preludes, the weekends would arrive, when curfews lengthened and parents went out leaving behind empty rooms. There in whatever space could be stolen, there awaited the damp pull of skin against skin, and the new moans of hunger in the dark.